ME!

ME!
Holding my "before" favorite shirt after losing 125 pounds on my journey to better health.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

I can't believe all of you looking at this blog. I will get going with some ideas in the next few days. I have been thinking about what is the most important thing to tell you. I had to first of all decide I was worth it. I NEEDED TO DO THIS FOR ME. I had to find other motivations to help me along but I often  have a little love fest.  I Think of how I have lived with this body for  years and it is the only body I have. I tell myself I am the most important person in the whole world to ME. My body and brain are fabulous. I am beautiful  but want to feel better. I have to tell my  body that I am going to challenge it, love it, work it, fuel it with healthy foods, and get feeling better. Sometimes my body gets a little sassy and doesn't want to do or eat what I really should but I can usually work though that with a little self talk.  One of my major problems is I "what if?" new adventures to much. What if I am the fattest in this class? What if someone stares at me? What if I am the oldest? What if it hurts? What if I walk with someone and I am to slow or get to tired? To cold, to hot, to crowded, only one there, blisters, sweaty.  I can go on and on. I have had to change my what if to SO WHAT?  I have been the fatest, oldest, slowest, ets. I have not died from any of those what ifs. I have had a lot of fun and made a lot of new friends who have become great supporters for me in my Journey.

6 comments:

  1. I so understand the "what if" that you deal with. I've put off more things that I can remember or count, by coming up with a "what if" to use to shut it down. I'm taking college classes now, but I talked myself out of taking the first step with excuses such as: "What if....I'm older than everyone else, what if...they look at me strange because of how I look, what if...I'm way behind everyone else, ...what if, what if, what if". It took me 10 years to finally take that first step.

    I haven't applied the "what if" in a negative manner with weight loss, I just can't figure out what it is that causes me to succumb to the triggers and cravings. Why do I continuously fail? How can I stop this madness? What is it going to take for me to finally do this?

    I'm so tired of being sick and tired. I don't have a lot of support at home and since I've started & restarted so many times, I don't talk to friends about it anymore.

    I'm happy for you, that you've succeeded in your quest. I hope that I can find the strength to do it myself, this year. I am a diabetic with high blood pressure and cholesterol.

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    1. Hi Stormee, May I offer a suggestion in answer to your questions, "Why do I continuously fail? How can I stop this madness? What is it going to take for me to finally do this?"

      One thing that has helped me tremendously is having foods in the house, and prepared, that I can go to when the sudden urge to eat steps in. For example: Homemade vegetable soup in the fridge, SF FF instant puddings or jello; fruits, cheese sticks, and such like. If I can have something to squelch the immediate hunger, that gives me time to prepare a good, nutritious meal. Filling foods will help all of us succeed. Good luck!

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    2. You have done such a strong and brave step by going back to college. I also got my degree a little later than most. I returned to college when I was 40 to earn my nursing degree. It is quite intimidating to sit in classes with all those babies. Several of my professors told me they love reentry students because they are serious and work. You will never get rid of the triggers and cravings. I had to constantly look for other options to not eat. I chew A LOT of sugar free gum. "What if" you look at the times you have been able to walk away. Each time I would resist I would do a little happy dance.(in my head) I agree with glenda. Get some emergency healthy foods to grab. Sometimes you just have to eat something to calm that craving down. Funny thing I have found that helps me a lot is watermelon with diet flavored water poured over it. I am sitting here shaking my head. I can't beleive I would prefer that over my favorite...cake. But I do now.

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  2. Thanks for a nice post and a good idea! I love the idea of what you call a love fest!
    Have a great day!

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  3. Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. I was hoping you would!!

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  4. I love this!!! What if turns into So What!!!! :) I'm going to write that one down somewhere! Thank you for sharing this with us. I'm going to go read the rest now. :)

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